I had a post to share with you today that I just couldn’t bring myself to publish. Because that is not what is on our hearts and minds today, is it? What fills our hearts and thoughts today is love for our children, and deep grief for those who lost theirs so violently this morning.
All I have been able to do today is mourn. I tried to do the laundry and cooking I had intended for the day, but I could hardly see through my tears. I ended up sitting on the ground playing with my baby, and hugging him through the tears. Weeping for those who could never hug their little ones this way again.
I realize the cynic would say that children die every day. But not this way. Not so young. Not like this.
It reminds us how unsure and unpredictable life can be.
I was fuming at my little girl over her whining and delaying that made us late for school again today. Did I hug her and tell her I loved her before she went to class? I can’t remember.
I want to run into her classroom and tell her so many things. I love her, I forgive her, these little things that make me so mad don’t matter. She is what matters. I love her because she is Julia. My baby. Not because of her behavior.
I am so very thankful for this precious gift that is my daughter. And I am overwhelmed with gratitude for every day I am able to spend with her and my boys. I am reminded never to take those days for granted again.
Lord, bring healing to the brokenhearted today. Hide them in the shadow of your wings.