Today I had to schedule a developmental evaluation for this little guy.
It was a lot harder than it should have been for someone who’s been down this road before. Of course, that’s probably why its so hard. I’m afraid this road might end up a lot longer than it looks.
He just turned two and he isn’t talking, just slurring vowel sounds together. I know this is common, and I know your cousin didn’t talk until they were three and they were fine. But I’m not feeling fine about it.
I’m thinking about his soft spot that still hasn’t closed. I’m thinking about how nothing tragic has happened yet to him, and my other two had something terrible happen by this point in their lives. I’m thinking about his big beautiful trusting eyes and how I wish I could tell myself nothing is wrong. I’m thinking about how desperately I love him and want things to be easy and smooth in his young life, but I know deep down that challenges will make him stronger. I’m thinking that its about time I go snuggle with him and drown these tears in his soft little arms.
My third son is five years old. He is adopted. His biological mother(my husband’s sister) is a lifetime drug user and was on probation when she tested 3 and one half times over the limit for meth and was placed in jail. I traveled to Texas (I live in Louisiana) to pick him up from the hospital and care for him. Bottom line bio mom went back to her old life and we have had this beautiful bright boy ever since. I noticed the same things as he grew. I know exactly how you feel, and the sadness in your heart for him. It is a long road, but you will make it, and he will continue to bring you such joy. The pictures show a beautiful child who will always reflect the fact that he has been well loved. Hang in there. You have a wonderful future ahead. In the end, he will be that strength that keeps renewing you. My son was in early steps and is now in a head start type program with the school system..We are hoping that he will no longer need assistance after his kindergarten year. I’m told that down the road, we won’t even remember how long the road was, just that we made it through..I wish that for you..Your family is in my prayers:)
Hugs to you and your darling Will
I know that this has been a struggle for you and Dan especially after all you have been through with Julia and Ian but never foget that God is in control and he has such a big and amazing plan for WIll! He is already using you and your children to touch so many lives and to give strength and encouragement to others who are facing challenges with their children. I am so blessed to know you and your family and get so excited every time I get to be with Will, Ian, and Julia! Still praying for you all!!
Sorry to hear you are so worried for will. You are SO right to trust your instincts. As his momma, you know, better than anyone else, when something isn’t right. I know you worry that you are being over protective and/or paranoid. If that is the worse thing that happens here, us that a bad thing? I think it would be worse if you ignored your instincts because you worried that you were ‘overreacting’ because of experiences with you other babies. Those experiences make you much more aware, and that awareness might end up making a huge difference for Will. It will all work out, Heather.