Finding Life in the Darkness- A Journey thru the Pain

I think its time for me to tell you my story. I’ve put it off for a number of months, maybe wondering what you would think. Perhaps feeling its too good to be true. But I want to share because you know me and love me, and you want to know. And I want to share…

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And the God of Peace Will be With You in Your Pain

I just want to call someone and complain. I want to whine and bitch about how much my head hurts all the frickin time. About how it feels like its gonna explode with the pain ALL DAY LONG. ALL THE TIME. When I wake up, in the middle of the night, when I’m on the…

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Can I Vent Just a Little?

I think maybe I’m allowed a good cry at this point. Hell, we’re all allowed a good cry at any point but I don’t allow myself to do it often. Today I might make an exception. I’m so damn sick of being sick. Not just being sick- not knowing why. What is causing all of…

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Spring Brown Rice Risotto

Risotto is my favorite comfort food.  Its a little fussy, sure.  But totally worth the wait. Normally its made with a very short grain arborio rice, but I decided to try to make it with a healthier brown rice and it actually turned out just as good.  It takes longer, so its no quick weeknight…

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Grandma’s Clam Chowder

Have I ever told you about my Grandparents?  I had four amazing ones that I grew up spending the summers with.  So much of my childhood and who I am is wrapped up in them. I told you about Gigi here.  She is an amazing woman, I can only hope to learn to give like…

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Roasted Wild Cod with Meyer Lemon and Caper Relish

I’ve started cooking again. It makes me happy. They tell me I should do the little things I enjoy. And so I cook. When my head is aching so much I feel like I am going crazy I try to distract myself by thinking of what I could cook and tweaking recipes to make them…

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Thank You

That last post was a tough one for me to write.  I wasn’t sure how much to share, or how people would respond.  I was afraid of judgement. And you know what I got instead? LOVE A lot of love.  Words of encouragement, hope, healing.  Messages from friends and strangers telling me they’ve been there…

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hello…

(Peeks head in) Hello… Is anyone still here? It has been almost a year since I wrote to you.  How can it have been that long? So much has happened, every time I sit down to write to you I don’t know where to start. But first- how are you all?  I have missed you.…

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Spring Has Sprung

Spring happens quickly here.  A day here and there of sunshine is about all we get.  April showers pass into May and June.  So when the sun comes out, its a party. Any day that it isn’t raining we’re hanging out in our weird little yard chasing Will and scaring birds.  We have a little…

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