How To Be a Grown Up

Usually raising three kids is not total chaos anymore. Most of the time I feel like I totally got this. Well maybe not totally, but I no longer feel like I’m drowning. Then there are the days when I feel like OMG, what the hell am I doing?? I have no idea how to do…

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hello…

(Peeks head in) Hello… Is anyone still here? It has been almost a year since I wrote to you.  How can it have been that long? So much has happened, every time I sit down to write to you I don’t know where to start. But first- how are you all?  I have missed you.…

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Small Struggles on the Road of Parenthood

Today I had to schedule a developmental evaluation for this little guy. It was a lot harder than it should have been for someone who’s been down this road before.  Of course, that’s probably why its so hard.  I’m afraid this road might end up a lot longer than it looks. He just turned two…

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Busy but Joyful

Is there ever a time when life is calm?  Not busy, not crazy, just cruising along.  And would we even like that?  Would we be bored? We complain about how crazy our lives are, but I begin to wonder if we are happier this way.  Perhaps most of us thrive on chaos.  We do our…

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Drowning in the Little Things… and Finding Hope Again

I am amazing in a crisis.  I mean, I could direct FEMA if they asked me.  Something clicks in me and I go into this mode where I can access memories I didn’t know I had, and multitask and prioritize like a triage nurse. But when it comes to the daily crisis of raising a…

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This Parenting Thing is HARD!

Today I completely broke down dropping Julia off at school.  I was talking to her Audiologist in the hallway, and she was asking me how she’s doing, and it just all came flooding out. This parenting thing is so hard.  And somehow I’m relying mainly on intuition and winging the rest of it.  I tried…

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Reminding Myself Why I Do It…

Sometimes when I’m feeling down about my mommy-life, I look through pictures of my kids.  Meanwhile they’re right outside the door, screaming and trying to get my attention. You would think I just need to go and look at the actual kid itself.  But pictures calm me.  Perhaps because they are still and quiet.  Their…

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Treasured Moments

I had one of those moments you treasure today with my baby. He’s 15 months, and an extremely active little guy.  He’s cuddly, but only for 15 second bursts, when he sees something else he’d rather be doing. He usually doesn’t even want me to rock him at nap time because he’s got toys to…

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A Little Special Time with the Kids

Two weeks into summer and we’re already getting antsy.  Maybe that’s not quite it.  I think the kids are getting more and more needy.  I don’t think I realized how important school is for giving them sense of being paid attention to and feeling important.  They are all clambering for attention, and shouting over each…

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What To Do With Too Many Ideas

Last week on the way home from school one day I decided to count how many things my kids asked me to do.  Now this was only one kid, and it was a short ten minute drive.  I counted 20 things!  Twenty separate but equal things that he absolutely had to do, and all of…

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